Fuck' N

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 07:14:31 GMT

Summer of love? Count me out. Honestly i dont think i can love a relationship anymore. Where are all my friends?

Its been awhile....

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 05:38:40 GMT

ha i love learning about peoples personalities. ESPECIALLY when you learn how much of a fucking bastard bitch they are. 1st off i want to say i have never been called a bitch so much in my ENTIRE life until i met this person. I have never been beaten so low and slapped in the face with all the mood swings and awful negative things this person has to say about me. I dont get it, why must every comment end up with an immature ending, why must you always make me feel so low and unimportant.

Well i can tell you. Its all about reflections. You arent happy with yourself so you have to make others feel the way you do. I say fuck that, i will not be made to feel unworthy. I am a smart, compassionate, caring person. And yea i can be an ass sometimes, but so can everybody. Obviously you are too self involved to notice the good in people. Well fuck that, im not taking it anymore. Fuck you and your hang ups, fuck you and your double standards and most of all fuck you for saying you care. Anybody who cares about somebody does not make them feel the way you make me feel everyday. FUCK YOU. I know you probably reading this and saying oh yea shes putting her emotions into everything. HA i am not that emotional of a person, compared to you i am because you are such a stone cold bitch. How does it feel to be called a bitch? Not very nice huh?

Fuck this i am done.

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 22:35:43 GMT

We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 19:54:08 GMT

life is moving fast, but not fast enough. Another 3 months and i will be graduating from school . Another month and i will be sitting fat down in houston with my gf who i miss tremendously. Yea i got a new car, 03 jetta gls. I will post pics later. Work sucks sometimes but i am doing my best at dealing with it. I cant wait for sacramento, i cant wait for next november, i cant wait for a new start with a bright future with the girl i love. Its going to fantastic. I am hoping by the middle/end of next summer i will be moved down there so i can have everything settled for when she comes back. I think that is all i have to say. Hope everyone is well.

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 00:14:18 GMT

I AM SO FUCKING BORED!!!

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 23:43:41 GMT

Get this. I am so unmotivated today! I have to write a simple 2 page paper on Anorexia, and all i have been doing for the last hour is sitting on Myspace fucking around.. Well atleast i have the cover page done. Another thing, Franz Ferdinand gets on my nerves. Okay im done with writing on here. bye.

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 20:26:00 GMT

so today...i went and donated blood... a pint to be exact. And well i finished giving a pint and then i had a reaction...which means i sat there got all dizzy sweated then threw up in front of about 10 ppl.. Not to mention as i was throwing up they threw coffee grounds on me.. Its a wonderful feeling going to work smelling like coffee grounds and stomach acid!! YAY FOR SAVING A FUCKING LIFE!!!!!

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 06:42:46 GMT

BLAH BLAH BLAH...

I think my life is starting to..well my mind is starting to, well...i dont know. i would say settle but that's an awful thought. Everything could be falling into place. Its an okay feeling, until the next whirlwind of mischief.

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 09:35:44 GMT

me feet are cold, this house is cold and all i want to do is smoke 33 cigs at once... hmmm

I watched the most depressing movie..Hotel Rwanda. Makes me want to shoot myself knowing that shit actually happens everyday.

That is all.

F.U.!!!

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 06:14:10 GMT

so i am sort of fed up with life right. its taking all the wrong turns and causing me severe anxiety and anger..what a combination! first off..i hate money. i hate student loans. i hate this state, i want to move oh so badly. Maybe this is wishful thinking, but for once could something just go right the first time?

i get a fucking packet in the mail saying my loan was denied..but the idiot on the phone said it wasnt and my school said it was approved and they got the email saying it... i am confused and angered at the same time. i just want to go to school and have it over and done with. i shouldnt have to pay!

I think that is all i have to say.

i want to move

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 23:12:33 GMT

i met some new ppl. they are cool. i have been really tired and bitchy lately due to lack of sleep. i have been hanging out in *olympia* god i know i said i would never go back..but cool ppl. ya, i finally got new tires for my jeep..well 2 new back ones, they are phatty mud slinging

OMG so im sitting here typing and im like umm...whats that white line on the desk? so i taste it and well my dads coke IS ON THE F UCKING DESK!!!! wtf i walking here and there are like 6 beer bottles in the trash and a god damn line on the desk..

anyway..i need to go deal..bye

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 05:43:18 GMT

all the misuse of love a 4 letter word confused with complete obsession confusing itself with psychotic obsession confusing itself with unseen words...its just a word you use when your low to the ground when your down and out...when you feel worth leeeesssssssss. it makes me want to shit..its an addictive word it is unforgiving its something crazy you can never see yourself acting.

admire me-

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 05:39:11 GMT

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet urmomismyslut? umm i dont want to say
2.~What would you do if you had never met piperm? i would die
3.~What do you honestly think of rubyrubysoho? she is nice
4.~Would or did gaystraightgurl and zachblack go out? possibly
5.~Have you ever liked lilnakdme? yep
6.~If monkeybars77 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? that i like shirts
7.~Would yourpaintedeyes and fondbutnotlove make a good couple? HELL NO
8.~Describe colormealone in 3 words: spontanious, stoned, blond
9.~Do you think racingheartbeat is hot? FUCK NO
10.~Would monkeybars77 and sugarlobotomy make a lovely couple? hahaha well they both smoke pot
11.~What do you think of when you see zachblack? bikes
12.~Tell me something humiliating about fondbutnotlove: wow i would love to ,but i wont
13.~Do you know any of finediner's family members? uh no
14.~What's bastardpirate's favorite color? probably black or red or white
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is brecheese? havent seen her in awhile
16.~What would you do if lady_fucker just professed their undying love for you? i would laugh and snap a beer
17.~What language does gaystraightgurl speak? english
18.~Who is speedy_421 going out with? elise
19.~Is sirbrina a boy or a girl? girl
20.~Would cuetpy and lady_fucker make a good couple? haha no
21.~Who do you think brokenangel would be great with from this list? nobawdy
22.~When was the last time you talked to racingheartbeat? a very long time ago and i intend to keep it that way
23.~What is lilnakdme's favorite band? prolly some lebo shit like ani
24.~Does yourpaintedeyes have any siblings? sure
25.~Would you ever date finediner? no
26.~Would you ever date colormealone? ....
27.~Is brokenangel single? prolly not
28.~What is bastardpirate's last name? ?
29.~What is cuetpy's middle name? ?
30~What is rubyrubysoho's fantasy? food?
31.~Where does sirbrina live? seattle
32.~Would you make out with urmomismyslut? did a few times
33.~Are piperm and finediner best friends? nope
34.~Does colormealone like bastardpirate? haha no
35.~How did you meet cuetpy? umm at her house
36.~Is racingheartbeat older than you? yep
37.~Is sugarlobotomy the sexiest person alive? nope

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 04:28:04 GMT

I would update my blog...but i think im toooooo retarded to fucking find that damn blog button....MMMMMMMM gin and tonic..yaya

anyway i love you all and we are throwing a phaaaaaaaaattty party...tomorrow...ashley..sirbrina...leiiiigHAN,jordin...mooo and your sidekick..i hope to see you all there... Oh yea...sirbrina bring your girl too, if you wanna..

Kay lots of periods for the ladies, gotta go now

kay bye

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 22:55:29 GMT

sup bitches im drinking on this hot fine day...and these god damn planes wont stop flying and being loud..................................................anyway last night was awesome.FUCKIN LEIGHAN WOULDNT LEAVE!!AND ASHLEY-WE'RE FIGHTING!!

ya so im gonna go drink my cheap vodka and sing send me an angel..

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 06:08:43 GMT

i hAVE to pee...i have been working. sorry i couldnt go be gay at pride.. i got way to drunk this weekend. I have a headache, i sold a lot of jewelry today..i still live with my parents and boy does it suck..

kay bye.

Fri, 27 May 2005 15:17:29 GMT

You scored as The Pretty-Boi Dyke. You can be a bit cocky at times and ever the heartbreaker, but no one knows that you're really just looking for true love.

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30%

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10%

The Granola Dyke

10%

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10%

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lately...

Tue, 03 May 2005 00:29:53 GMT

lately i have been walking around with a smile on my face...for no reason. Lately people have been popping up in my life out of nowhere. I work a lot, i fuck off at school and im just all around content. Its wonderful..

I am getting a tattoo tonight. I am excited! Jess and I are going together.

Not much else to say.. Im trying to post pics off of Erin's camera but i dont know if that'll go through.

Hope all is well..

Later!

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 17:00:51 GMT

You are Summer Wheatley and you hate cake.

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Fri, 18 Mar 2005 20:25:03 GMT

What a great way to start my weekend off.. I get paid. I slept in and i started my period. AFTER 2 MONTHS OF NOT HAVING it comes like a tidal wave. FUCK!!

This whole life thing is pretty cool. Hanging out with friends all the time wasnt cutting it. Now all i do is work,sleep,eat,school. Its working. My goals are in focus. I feel good about myself. WOO. Im thinking of something to do tonight, i think i want to go downtown and see a new movie, most likely with zach and Toro. Ya so i gotta go now i hope that everybody is well taken care of..I MISS u all.........

byeeee

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 00:04:09 GMT

I fucking want to shoot myself. Here it is 4 and i just woke up, MYYYYYY BOOODDDYS TELLIN ME NOOOOOOOOO BUT MY MINDDDDDDD IS TELLING ME YEES.

FUcking shit my ass hurts.

HAHAHAHA WE CAUGHT 4.little bitches are stuck to a sticky pad in the g arage. eeck

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 06:17:24 GMT

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

Im buying a "time piece". Soon. Its $2,050 and i get a 40% discount which is real nice. I started my new job. I love it. Its tiring and yea... I will be making 1000 a month possibly more, which is real nice for a part time job. I sit on my ass looking at jewelry filing papers and answering phones. In a couple of months i will be moving in with my girl. Things have been going very well lately i think we are learning to appreciate eachother more and more. I hate the meds i am on. I am really excited about my "time piece" and paying my bills. This watch is fucking TIGHT.Diamonds,hand etched face what the fuck more can i say?

TIME for bed yo.Hope all you homies are being good and doing what you do...Love ya all...

-derix

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 17:12:38 GMT

this week has been going by so slow..I am waiting for my tax return that comes back on friday, school starts back up tomorrow and i start my new "professional" job on saturday at 8:45.

I went to the doctor for a follow up apt. and things didnt go the way they were expected, there are a few major but minor set backs that will go away in about 2 weeks after i am done with all of my fucking antibiotics. Lemme tell you, having a shot of whatever it was in yer ass does NOT feel very merry.

Other than that about every half an hour i feel like i am having a coronary. I need to go back to sleep or some shit.

This is about the funniest thing i have heard all week..

Ashley: Im hungry, can we get mcdonalds?
me: not right now i dont have money.
Ashley: Ye can use yer debit card..

Ashley is my 6 yr old sister. Oh and i thought this was also hilarious when she asked tori what she was wearing, and if she had big boobs...AHHAhhahahahaha

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 16:48:50 GMT

Its my BDAY TOMORROW BITCHES!!

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 00:48:10 GMT

Sometimes rash decisions are needed..They suck. But ppl need to get their act together. Dear friend i love you and i will miss you..Take care, i will get my box soon.