Sunday, July 9th, 2006
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12:12 am
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Summer of love? Count me out. Honestly i dont think i can love a relationship anymore. Where are all my friends?
current mood:  calm
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Monday, February 27th, 2006
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9:37 pm - Its been awhile....
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ha i love learning about peoples personalities. ESPECIALLY when you learn how much of a fucking bastard bitch they are. 1st off i want to say i have never been called a bitch so much in my ENTIRE life until i met this person. I have never been beaten so low and slapped in the face with all the mood swings and awful negative things this person has to say about me. I dont get it, why must every comment end up with an immature ending, why must you always make me feel so low and unimportant.
Well i can tell you. Its all about reflections. You arent happy with yourself so you have to make others feel the way you do. I say fuck that, i will not be made to feel unworthy. I am a smart, compassionate, caring person. And yea i can be an ass sometimes, but so can everybody. Obviously you are too self involved to notice the good in people. Well fuck that, im not taking it anymore. Fuck you and your hang ups, fuck you and your double standards and most of all fuck you for saying you care. Anybody who cares about somebody does not make them feel the way you make me feel everyday. FUCK YOU. I know you probably reading this and saying oh yea shes putting her emotions into everything. HA i am not that emotional of a person, compared to you i am because you are such a stone cold bitch. How does it feel to be called a bitch? Not very nice huh?
Fuck this i am done.
current mood:  anxious
current music: Hawthorne heights
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Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
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2:35 pm
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We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?
So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
current mood:  blah
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Thursday, December 15th, 2005
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11:49 am
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life is moving fast, but not fast enough. Another 3 months and i will be graduating from school . Another month and i will be sitting fat down in houston with my gf who i miss tremendously. Yea i got a new car, 03 jetta gls. I will post pics later. Work sucks sometimes but i am doing my best at dealing with it. I cant wait for sacramento, i cant wait for next november, i cant wait for a new start with a bright future with the girl i love. Its going to fantastic. I am hoping by the middle/end of next summer i will be moved down there so i can have everything settled for when she comes back. I think that is all i have to say. Hope everyone is well.
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Wednesday, November 30th, 2005
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4:23 pm
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Saturday, November 12th, 2005
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3:41 pm
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Get this. I am so unmotivated today! I have to write a simple 2 page paper on Anorexia, and all i have been doing for the last hour is sitting on Myspace fucking around.. Well atleast i have the cover page done. Another thing, Franz Ferdinand gets on my nerves. Okay im done with writing on here. bye.
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Friday, November 11th, 2005
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12:31 pm
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so today...i went and donated blood... a pint to be exact. And well i finished giving a pint and then i had a reaction...which means i sat there got all dizzy sweated then threw up in front of about 10 ppl.. Not to mention as i was throwing up they threw coffee grounds on me.. Its a wonderful feeling going to work smelling like coffee grounds and stomach acid!! YAY FOR SAVING A FUCKING LIFE!!!!!
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Thursday, November 10th, 2005
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10:40 pm
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BLAH BLAH BLAH...
I think my life is starting to..well my mind is starting to, well...i dont know. i would say settle but that's an awful thought. Everything could be falling into place. Its an okay feeling, until the next whirlwind of mischief.
current mood: okay
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Saturday, November 5th, 2005
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1:33 am
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me feet are cold, this house is cold and all i want to do is smoke 33 cigs at once... hmmm
I watched the most depressing movie..Hotel Rwanda. Makes me want to shoot myself knowing that shit actually happens everyday.
That is all.
F.U.!!!
current mood:  lethargic
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Monday, October 17th, 2005
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11:10 pm
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so i am sort of fed up with life right. its taking all the wrong turns and causing me severe anxiety and anger..what a combination! first off..i hate money. i hate student loans. i hate this state, i want to move oh so badly. Maybe this is wishful thinking, but for once could something just go right the first time?
i get a fucking packet in the mail saying my loan was denied..but the idiot on the phone said it wasnt and my school said it was approved and they got the email saying it... i am confused and angered at the same time. i just want to go to school and have it over and done with. i shouldnt have to pay!
I think that is all i have to say.
i want to move
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Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
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4:05 pm
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i met some new ppl. they are cool. i have been really tired and bitchy lately due to lack of sleep. i have been hanging out in *olympia* god i know i said i would never go back..but cool ppl. ya, i finally got new tires for my jeep..well 2 new back ones, they are phatty mud slinging
OMG so im sitting here typing and im like umm...whats that white line on the desk? so i taste it and well my dads coke IS ON THE F UCKING DESK!!!! wtf i walking here and there are like 6 beer bottles in the trash and a god damn line on the desk..
anyway..i need to go deal..bye
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Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
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10:40 pm
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all the misuse of love a 4 letter word confused with complete obsession confusing itself with psychotic obsession confusing itself with unseen words...its just a word you use when your low to the ground when your down and out...when you feel worth leeeesssssssss. it makes me want to shit..its an addictive word it is unforgiving its something crazy you can never see yourself acting.
admire me-
current mood:  cynical
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Friday, August 19th, 2005
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10:39 pm
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Monday, August 1st, 2005
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9:25 pm
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I would update my blog...but i think im toooooo retarded to fucking find that damn blog button....MMMMMMMM gin and tonic..yaya
anyway i love you all and we are throwing a phaaaaaaaaattty party...tomorrow...ashley..sirbrina...leiiiigHAN,jordin...mooo and your sidekick..i hope to see you all there... Oh yea...sirbrina bring your girl too, if you wanna..
Kay lots of periods for the ladies, gotta go now
kay bye
current mood: Ima balla babbyyyyyyyyy oh no
current music: paul wall- still tippin w/ mike jones (remix)
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Sunday, July 31st, 2005
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3:53 pm
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sup bitches im drinking on this hot fine day...and these god damn planes wont stop flying and being loud..................................................anyway last night was awesome.FUCKIN LEIGHAN WOULDNT LEAVE!!AND ASHLEY-WE'RE FIGHTING!!
ya so im gonna go drink my cheap vodka and sing send me an angel..
current mood:  drunk
current music: Erasure- Send me an Angel
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Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
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11:07 pm
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i hAVE to pee...i have been working. sorry i couldnt go be gay at pride.. i got way to drunk this weekend. I have a headache, i sold a lot of jewelry today..i still live with my parents and boy does it suck..
kay bye.
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Friday, May 27th, 2005
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8:17 am
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 | You scored as The Pretty-Boi Dyke. You can be a bit cocky at times and ever the heartbreaker, but no one knows that you're really just looking for true love.
The Pretty-Boi Dyke | | 55% | The Student Dyke | | 40% | The Magic Earring Ken Dyke | | 40% | The Stud | | 30% | The Quasi-Gothic Femme | | 20% | The Surprise! Dyke | | 10% | The Granola Dyke | | 10% | The Vaginal-Reference-Making Dyke | | 10% | The Femme Fatale | | 5% | The Hipster Dyke | | 5% | The Little-Boy Dyke | | 0% | The Bohemian Dyke | | 0% | The Sprightly Elfin Femme | | 0% | </td>
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Monday, May 2nd, 2005
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5:29 pm - lately...
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lately i have been walking around with a smile on my face...for no reason. Lately people have been popping up in my life out of nowhere. I work a lot, i fuck off at school and im just all around content. Its wonderful..
I am getting a tattoo tonight. I am excited! Jess and I are going together.
Not much else to say.. Im trying to post pics off of Erin's camera but i dont know if that'll go through.
Hope all is well..
Later!
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Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
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9:00 am
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Friday, March 18th, 2005
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12:21 pm
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What a great way to start my weekend off.. I get paid. I slept in and i started my period. AFTER 2 MONTHS OF NOT HAVING it comes like a tidal wave. FUCK!!
This whole life thing is pretty cool. Hanging out with friends all the time wasnt cutting it. Now all i do is work,sleep,eat,school. Its working. My goals are in focus. I feel good about myself. WOO. Im thinking of something to do tonight, i think i want to go downtown and see a new movie, most likely with zach and Toro. Ya so i gotta go now i hope that everybody is well taken care of..I MISS u all.........
byeeee
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